Updated: Feb 29
I've been spending a lot of time trying to figure out that age old question that we all inevitably face...what comes next?
I traveled to Costa Rica last September, kind of on a whim, after talking with a friend about how "I should TOTALLY become a yoga teacher." (Her words, not mine!) I kind of stumbled into yoga in April of 2018, just a few weeks after I made the decision to break up with my long time (toxic) friend, Booze. What started as a personal challenge to prove to myself that I "didn't have a problem" turned into a life-changing decision that has opened up way more doors than I thought it was closing. I found myself in a yoga class at my local gym one Saturday morning, completely lost and still fighting off the last of the shakes. To be honest, I don't know what it was that I found in that class that day, but I kept coming back. Every Saturday, 10 am. The one hour a week where I could rest, recharge, and connect with my inner self...a "self" that I frankly never knew existed. So how in the hell did I get talked into becoming a teacher?
Truthfully...I don't even know. My friend was full of ideas that day. She kept going on and on and on about how great it would be to have a therapist who could provide local support groups for anxiety and depression management, give people a sense of community, and transform the concept of seeking counseling to hopefully remove some of that stigma that still exists. I sat and listened, let her spill out her ideas. It was brilliant.
So, I went home and decided to do some research, found Blue Osa approximately 7 minutes later, and paid my deposit...I swear, I DO have impulse control (sometimes!). I just knew I needed something big. After over a year of regularly practicing yoga in the safety and judgement free space of my own home, I had frankly become pretty disconnected. While I was cultivating this new, strong, empowered version of myself, I had also isolated from friends, family, and social situations outside of my 50 minute sessions with my clients. I was terrified of relapsing. I had come so far in my sobriety, but all of the anxiety I drank to avoid had resurfaced. I was eaten alive with fear, doubt, insecurity...so I needed something big. Like traveling to Costa Rica by myself to live in the jungle and practice yoga with a bunch of strangers kind of big. So to Costa Rica I went.
Fast forward to now. I'm still relatively fresh out of my teacher training, but my, how the opportunities have presented themselves! I recognized some things needed to change with the way I had been running my practice. If you are or have been a client of mine at some point, you know I've preached about boundaries. I needed to redefine mine, however, which meant setting some new limits with my time and schedule and facing some more of those fears that I would run all of my clients away and no one would seek services with me anymore. I wanted to open doors for people to come and sit with their own fears and insecurities, learn to breathe and move and meditate, and explore their feelings in a way outside of traditional talk therapy. I wanted to give people a sense of community, since SO many of my clients talk about how they need it, but don't know where to start looking. I wanted to share my deep love for holistic wellness with people so they could start looking past their self limiting beliefs and begin to see new, realistic opportunities for growth. I wanted to be the therapist who would lead them into that realm, walk through the fear with them, and challenge them grow into the people they truly wanted to be.
So here I am, ultimately still at the very beginning of that journey. While I'm manifesting and designing and constructing this image of a place, I'm also continuing my education, adding new credentials to my name so I can provide an even deeper level of insight into holistic wellness consulting. Things will continue to change with what was once known as Katie Mason Counseling Services. Mind + Body Therapy and Wellness will grow into a holistic wellness center, and services outside of traditional "come sit on my sofa and tell me your problems" therapy will be offered to people who are ready to dive deeper, explore their roots, and tap into their real, authentic selves. I will never stop learning, because I want to share that knowledge with everyone who is ready to embrace it. My vision might be a little different, and my transparency with my own story might be a little too much for some, but I am proof that you CAN pull yourself from complete darkness all on your own, and that is a message I want every client to hear.
So for now, find some yoga pants. Face some fears. Feel your feelings. And stay tuned. I look forward to sharing this journey with you.
"Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured."